My First love - neha

hello friendzzzs

mera naam neha hai aur main bhopal (m.p) ki hu maine aaj se 12 saal pehle pyar hua tha jab main bahut choti thi aur pyar ka matlab bhi nhi janti thi 14 saal ki umar main padosh maine rehne wale ladke ne mujhe prapose kiya wo 18 ka tha banti bhi mujse pyar karta tha par maine usse jawab nhi diya kyunki wo muslim tha aur main brahmin par 2 saal ke baad maine bhi haan bol di phir maine usse shadi karne ko kaha par wo mana kar raha tha waqt ke sath humne sari hadeeeee par kar le thi phir bahut muskil se maine usko maine manaya uske gharwalo ko razi kiya wo bhi man gaye hamari family relation acche the par hundu muslim shadi ke liya koi nhi manta hai phir bhi banti ki mom man gyi ab kya tha humne shadi ke liya bahut try kiya par nhi kar paye aur mere gharwalo ko pata chal gya phir kya tha unhone mujhe bahut samjhaya ki chor do usse par main aisa nhi kar sakti thi phir ek di 27 nov 2008 ko mere sare parivar walo ne mil kar shivsena,bajrangdal & policewalo ko bula liya us waqt main akele thi 25 logo ke bicch main par maine har nhi mani apni baat par tiki rahi aur mujse bola gya ki nhi manogi to hum usse mar denge mujhe mazbori main baat manni padi aur bahar bhej diya gya phir bhi maine apni sis ke sahare se usse baat ki phir wahi mereliye ladke bhi dekhe gye aur 4 mahine baad main wapas aa gyi kyunki log puch rahe isliye mujhe bulawaya gya tab bhi mujhe band rakha gya
uske baad mere shadi pakki ho gyi maine kisi se phone bhi karwaya par ladke walo ko yakin nhi hua ki mera affair hai ab shadi ko sirf 2 mahine hi baki the main bahut kaha ki chalo shadi kar lete hai par usne dhokha diya aur baat karne se mana kar diya phir main sab bhagwan par chor diya par mere kismat acche thi aur mujhe usse bhi jyada par karne wala pati mila thanxs to goddd ab main bahut khush hu aaj bhi wo kehta haiki main tumse pyar karta hu par agar sach main pyar hota to wo mujhe kissi aur ka hone nhi deta ab main sirf apne husband ko chati hu aur maine usse bula diya hai...................

REAL LOVE STORY - TANU

Hi. . . .
I am tanu, i want to tell u my love story. Plz you decided that, i am
wrong and right. So here i am. . . .
Me 1st year me pd rhi hu, meri sagai ho chuki h, lekin me kisi or se
pyar krti hu.
Jb me 6th me pdti thi, mere bahut se frnd the, or 2 best frnd the,
lekin mujhe kaha pta tha ki aane vale dino me koi h, jo mujhe bahut
acha lgne lg jaega, kahte h na pyar ek br me nhi milta, mere sath bhi
kuch esa hi hua h. Mera frnd tha mnnu, hum dono best frnd the, ek
dusre se hr bt share krte the, ab hum dono kisi karn se bt nhi krte,
lekin aj bhi vo mera best frnd h, or rahega, lekin jb usne mujhse bt
krna bnd kiya to meri life me honey aaya. Or yaha se start hoti h
"MERI REAL LOVE STORY"  honey me is waqt mujhe ek bahut ache dost ki
tarah support kiya, vo meri bhut care krta tha. Jb mene 12th pass ki,
meri sagai ho gai thi, socha tha ki ab meri life me pyar k liye koi
jagah nhi h, lekin 2010 me kuch to khas tha, meri sagai to ho gai,
lekin honey k liye mere dil me kuch hone lga, vo mere liye bahut khas
ho gaya, humesha uske bare me sochna, uski ek2 bt ko yd kr kr k
muskrana. Uski bato pr gussa hona to kbhi ruthna manana, lekin in sb
me mene dhyan hi nhi diya ki mujhe kya ho raha h, me usse itna serious
lene lgi, jitna mene kbhi kisi ko nhi liya.  Jb me usse bt krti to
uski bato ko sunkr hasti, or jb usse bt nhi krti to uski bato ko yaad
krke. Raat ko sota waqt hum msg se chat krte, us time me itni pagal ho
gai ki mujhe nind to aati pr me usse bt krne k liye soti hi nhi thi,
or fir pta hi nhi chalta tha ki kb so jati thi. Bd me humesha usse
sorry bolti. Jb raat ko usse bt krke sone lgti to uski yaado me rahti,
or subah aankh khulti to bhi uska chahra meri aankho me or yad dil me
hoti thi, lgta tha ki me puri raat bhar shayad usse hi bt kr rhi hu.
Or ek br 25dec.2010 ko wo mujhse kisi bt ko lekr naraj ho gaya, is
time me bahut roi, or mujhe meri feelings ka pta chala, lga ki ye hi
to pyar h, lekin mere samne bahut bdi mushkil thi, meri sagai. Lgta
tha ki me kya kahungi ki mujhe sagai k bd pyar ho gaya, roj akele me
use yaad krke rona, bs usse ek br ye kahna chahti thi ki me usse bahut
pyar krti hu, or mene kaha bhi, 2jan2011 ko mene use apne dil bt kahi,
to pta chala ki wo to mujhe 6th class se chahta h. Or usne mujhe 3jan
ko apna reply diya, kaha " I Love u " or ab me bahut khush thi, humari
life me sb kuch acha chal raha tha, hum dono ek dusre se bahut pyar
krte h. Ab mujhe sb acha lgta, akele me muskrati lekin ro pdti thi
kyoki hum dono ne ek dusre se wada kiya ki hum kbhi ye bt kisi ko nhi
btaenge, kyoki meri shaadi ko lekr mere ghrwalo ne bahut se spne saja
liye the. Agar hum ek dusre se pyar krte the to humare parents to
humse usse bhi jyada pyar krte the, to hume ye haq kisne diya ki hum
unka dil tod de.  Humne ye decided kiya ki hum shaadi k bd humare
jivansathi ko bhi bahut khushi denge, jinka haq unko h, or shaadi se
phle ka ye waqt bs humara h, is pr kisi ka koi haq nhi h. Or hum ise
bhut ache se nibha rahe h, in dino hum bahut khush h, honey jb mujhe
or ladkiyo ka name lekr chidta h, to me gussa ho jati hu, kyoki use
isse bhut khushi milti h, lekin mujhe is bt se koi bura nhi lgta,
kyoki us pr ek vishvas h, or vo kbhi nhi tutega, vo naraj hota h, me
use manati hu, use itna pareshan krti hu ki wo gussa ho jata h. Fir
pyar se usko manati hu, ya ruthne manane k songs likh kr send krti hu,
vo mujhse bhut pyar krta h, is bich mujhe pta nhi kya ho gaya, mene
sagai todne k liye kaha, lekin usne mujhe smjhaya mere gharwalo k
liye. Or shi bhi to h, gharwalo ka hum pr kuch to haq h. Or mene bhi
apne ap ko mana liya, jb 17nov. Ko pta chala ki meri shaadi ki date
fix ho gai h, 27 jan 2012 to me bahut roi. Lekin usne mujhe bahut pyar
samjahaya, or mene socha ki jaruri nhi jisse pyar kro, usi se shadi
ko. Or mene decided kiya ki chahe meri shadi kisi se bhi ho, mere dil
me honey khi na khi humesha hoga. . . .or fir pta chala, ki honey apne
gharwalo k sath chennai ja raha h, to mujhe bahut bura lga ki humare
pas phle hi waqt nhi tha, or ab vo 18dec. Ko chennai chala jaega, or 3
oct. 2012 ko aaega, jis din humare rishte ko pura ek saal ho jaega. .
. .ab to bs uska wait h, humari kahani koi the end to nhi h, lekin fir
bhi hum khush h, kyoki humare gharwale khush h. . . Or ab bs wo or
uski yaade. . . . . . . .

Pain Shayari

pyar kiya hai to nibhana sikho...
duniya ko bhula kar zindgi jeena sikho...
todna chahte ho ye rishta ek bar keh kar to dekho...
magar ye lukka-chuppi ka khel khelna na sikho....



Choota jo tera sath to kya hua,
tota jo dil to kya hua,
humein to aadat hai chot khane ki,
tune bewafai ka nazrana diya to kya hua...



Tujhe kya maloom wafa kya hoti hai,
ek toote hue dil ki tadap kya hoti hai,
tu to bewafa hai,
dilon se khelne ki aadat hai teri,
tujhe kya maloom sachchi chahat kya hoti hai... 

Hona he tha unhein kisi oor ka,
ye jante the hum,
unke nazron or dil ki bat,
har sheh se samjh paye the hum,
magar banna pda anjan har ek baat se,
kyunki pehli bar unke itni kareeb aaye the hum. 

  

Zindagi itni ulajh gai hai ki rashta nazar aata nahi,
thi unke sath ki zarurat humsafar nazar aata nahi,
kho gai kahin meri sapno ki choti si duniya,
ab koi aashiyana nazar aata nahi...



Mera dil aaur dimaag ki kashma-kash mujhe jeene nahi deti,
khoi raah mujhe manzil paane nahi deti,
dil chahta hai mita du khud ko,
magar uski kasam marne bhi nahi deti...




Khuda mere faisle me apni haami bhar de,
meri ruh ko apni panah me shamil kar de,
jeete jee to zindagi se kuch na mila,
bas lab khamosh hone se pehle mere dost ko aabaad kr de...



Kash ke ye zindagi ki aakhri raat ho jaye,
humse khafa humari sans ho jaye,
bas dena mujhe itni himmat ki,
jane se pehle ek mulakat ho jaye...

Zindagi Se Har kar ab dur ja rahe hain,

Etne hue majbur ki roye ja rahe hain,

Har kisi ko nahi milta mangne se sath,

Main bhi hu unme se ek ye gum sahe ja rahe hain...

Zindagi se mujhe itni hairaniyat kyun hai,

Ab mere saaye ko bhi mujhe shikayat kyun hai,

ek hum hain jo maut ke bohot kareeb,

aur log puchte hain hum itna muskurate kyun hai..

Dil todne walon ki kataar me humein khada kar diya,

bin soche samjhe humein bewafa ka nam de diya,

kuch kehne ka mauka na mila humko,

bas issi dard se,

humne apni puri zindagi ko aansuon ke nam kar diya....

Ek mera intzar hai jo kabhi khatam nahi hoga,

Ek mera intzar hai jo kabhi khatam nahi hoga,

kya karein doston wo mera hokar bhi kabhi mera nahi Hoga...

Apne leeye faisle ko wapas lelo,

aur mujhe apni zindagi me aane ka hanseen tohfaa dedo,

kyun ho bhala itne khafa humse,

Maan bhi jao chahe iske badle meri zindagi lelo...

  

kyun wo chod gaye samjh nahi paye,

aankho me nami aur hoton par chuppi de gaye,
kyun samjh nahi paye,
kya kafi nahi tha unka itna dard dena,
jo kisi oor ka hath tham kar humare samne chale aaye....

Intezar

Na kar mujhpar ye mohabbat ki baarishe jaana,
khaak hogayi hai jalkar saari khwaahishe jaana,
meri maut ko mukammal hone nahi deti hain ye
bas aakar mita jaao in saanso ki saazishe jaana...!

Intezar!

Dekh jara mohabbat me kaise ishkaal hote hain
Jab girte hai kuch ashk to kitne sawaal hote hain

Shohrat hai unki bewafai se, hum tanha wafa se
Mohabbat mein bhi kaise kaise misaal hote hain

Kabhi to hai khwab-o-khayal rooh tak guftaar
to kabhi in jismo ke saaye bhi muhaal hote hain

Yun to ek muddat se wo bhi hain muntazir mere
Khuda jaane kab wo meri deed par nihaal hote hain

Gamgeen to hai har dard-o-sukoon jo tumne diye
zakhm hain atfaal abi, dekhiye kab Jamaal hote hain

badi shiddat se batihe hain maut ke Intezar me jaana
Dekhte hain tukde ye kafan ke kab istemaal hote hain !


Shukriya
Intezar ! 

Dekh jara mohabbat me kaise ishkaal hote hain
Jab girte hai kuch ashk to kitne sawaal hote hain
achaa kya sawaal hai tumharaab muj se. sirf shikaya hi rahti hai. babaa main masroof hoon aur har baar bulaane pe nahin aa sakti samjhe.
Shohrat hai unki bewafai se, hum tanha wafa se
Mohabbat mein bhi kaise kaise misaal hote hain
acha ab main bewafaa ho gayi.zaraa batanaa kya bewafaai ki hai maine yehi na ki tumhein chahti hoon aur khud ko bhulaa baithi hoon.
Kabhi to hai khwab-o-khayal rooh tak guftaar
to kabhi in jismo ke saaye bhi muhaal hote hain
khyali pulaao mat pakaaya karo. kuch haqiqat mein bhi zindagi guzaaro.
Yun to ek muddat se wo bhi hain muntazir mere
Khuda jaane kab wo meri deed par nihaal hote hain
tum mere khawaab mein to aate hi rahte ho aur kyaa chahiye
Gamgeen to hai har dard-o-sukoon jo tumne diye
zakhm hain atfaal abi, dekhiye kab Jamaal hote hain
badaa hi haseen aur khoobsurat ilzaam hai mujh pe . khush hui
badi shiddat se batihe hain maut ke Intezar me jaana
Dekhte hain tukde ye kafan ke kab istemaal hote hain !

Main Huin Dil Meri Kahani Suno..

Khuda ne mujhe banaya bade pyar se aur dil nam rakh diya,

Mujhe banakar insan ke seene me rakkha gaya dhadakne ke liye,

Main khus huaa bat jankar,

Ki main bhi dhadkunga kisi ke liye,

Magar insan ko kaha thi meri kadar,

Pehle basaya mujhme kisi khas ko,

dediya mujhe kisi khas ko,
Jab ban gayi wo adat meri,

fir keh diya use bhuljane ko,

Main rota raha tadapta raha dhadakta raha bas uska nam lekar,

fir mujhe tod diya gaya bejaan samjh kar.

Main to dil huin chup rehta huin,

seene me band rehta huin,

sehta huin har dard ko,

fir bhi main jeena ka sahara deta raha,

Mujhe aaj bhi koi nahi samjh paaya ki main kya chahta huin,

Main to Dil huin bas pyar he chahta huin aur pyar he banata huin,

Kuch nahi bas chorana na mujhe,

Akhir main bhi khuda ka banaya huaa huin,

Bas pyar se dhadakne do mujhe,

Pyar pane do mujhe,

Jeena chahta huin jeene do mujhe,

मोहब्बत क्या है ??

मोहब्बत क्या है ?? 

दो लब्जों में हम बताते है !!!

तेरा मजबूर कर देना, मेरा मजबूर हो जाना !!!

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